seperti yang bisa kalian liat di postingan gue sebelum ini, hari ini gue memang lagi bete dan lagi sedih banget . kayaknya banyak banget perasaan yang campur aduk di dala hati gue . tapi mau gimana pun gue tetep harus jalanin hidup . gak mungkin kan saking melankolisnya gue, gue cuman bisa nangis sesenggukan dan tidur gulang-guling di kamar ?

ke'melankolis'an gue ini bertambah menjadi saat tadi pagi gue berangkat sekolah . memang biasanya di sekolah gue setiap hari Sabtu itu libur . tapi karena harus ngejar materi ujian praktek, terpaksa deh masuk sekolah . parahnya pas gue dateng, banyak anak-anak yang lagi duduk di depan gerbang sekolah . gue mikir, "loh ? kenapa anak-anak pada di luar ? kenapa gak masuk ke dalem aja ?"

usut punya usut, ternyata gak ada 1 orang pun guru di sekolah . gue semakin bingung, "sebenarnya hari ini tuh masuk atau libur sih ? gak konsekuen banget sih yang bikin jadwal !" . lalu karena papah gue nungguin gue di mobil, otomatis gue jadi gak enak sama papah kalo harus nunggu lama . ya udah, gue pulang duluan . gak lama kemudian setelah nyampe rumah, ada temen gue yang ngesms dan bilang kalo guru gue udah dateng . gondok banget lah disitu . "kenapa guru ngasih contoh ngaret sih ke murid-muridnya ?" . dengan berat hati dan dengan malu banget, gue ngomong ke papah, "pah, gurunya udah dateng . anterin balik lagi ke sekolah ya ?"

nah, masalah konyol ini gak usah di bahas ya ? akhirnya setelah balik lagi ke sekolah, gue langsung nyalain komputer, buka blog dan ngeposting . sambil ngetik, gue dengerin lagu dari windows media player . entah si komputer tau gue lagi melankolis atau entah kenapa, langsung keputer tuh lagunya simple plan yang perfect yang semakin bikin gue melankolis . gini nih liriknya :


Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I'm wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me


Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect


I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't
Care anymore


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing alright


Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect


Nothing's gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this
Right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand


Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect


Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
Im sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect